Buddy has a peculiar, yet entertaining, personality. He cannot tolerate closed doors. Every interior door in the house must be open at all times or he scratches at the door and pitches a fit. Buddy must know what lies beyond each door. It can be very inconvenient when trying to dress or use the restroom when there are other people in the home.
Buddy also wants to apply this rule to my patio door. However, I’m trying to get him to understand that the outer door cannot be open while the air conditioner is on or the groundskeepers are using the leaf blowers, blowing noxious dust and pollen into the air. But in his mind, the patio of part of “inside.”
In this broken world, it’s easy for me to get discouraged. I’ve been struggling with my creative writing, an activity I’ve joyously engaged in since first grade. I’ve been trying to figure out why I keep procrastinating, despite having numerous ideas for stories.
Perhaps you’re feeling stuck and also wondering why. Maybe this blog post will help.
Yes, nine years of severe insomnia likely burnt me out as I got only 1-4 hours of sleep a night for 6 years (later 4-6 hours for 3 years), while still getting up at 4:45 to pray then drive to work.
Yes, publishing and promoting the first book and short story collection was hard work and cost money. But it was fun too.
My computer died just before completing book two, already delayed by the insomnia. Surgery and moving also created delays.
Self doubt: Definitely an issue. Does God approve of my spending time this way? Am I wasting my time? Does the world really need my cartoons and books?
But what I’m realizing is that the true issue is—a lack of faith.
I’m wanting the outcome guaranteed before I risk the time and effort it takes to produce quality material. Or to strike out into new endeavors, like podcasting.
I’d like to think that I’m more like Peter, the only one of 12 apostles to step out of the boat to walk toward Jesus on stormy water. Or like David, marching out to fight the giant Goliath with just a sling and some smooth stones.
But too often I’m like the apostles, huddled in the boat, watching Peter step out.
Or like King Saul and the army of Israel, quaking in fear for 40 days, listening to the giant’s taunts, then watching a teenage boy run to meet the challenge.
I’m like Buddy, wanting to see what’s on the other side of the door at all times.
I want a guaranteed outcome. I want all my ducks lined up in a row, knowing how it’s all going to fit together before starting.
But that’s not trusting God.
Nor is it reality. The only predictable thing about life is that it’s unpredictable.
God tells us in Proverbs 3:5-6 to “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.”
God says there will be times that I will be baffled by life but just keep doing what I know is right, as defined in His Word, the Bible, and He’ll work it out.
God wants us to have positive expectation of our future, that He’s in control.
“The Lord has established His throne in the heavens, and His sovereignty rules over all (Psalm 103:19).”
There are many traits listed in Proverbs 31 which define a godly woman, and one of them is optimism.
“Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she SMILES at the future (Proverbs 31:25)”.
I’m not promoting the false teachings of “name it, claim it” or “positive confession” which claims that we are like God, speaking things into reality.
But I do believe that our attitudes inspire us to persevere or train or learn what is necessary to succeed if we believe it is achievable.
A realistic assessment of the talents God has given us, can give us an idea of the direction God wants us to take in our lives, since He’s designed each of us with a purpose in mind.
And a knowledge of “the sin that so easily entangles us (Hebrews 12:1),” can show the obstacles of personality that need to be overcome through confession, repentance of that is hindering us.
So I need to admit: I’m just not trusting God before taking the next step.
I need to smile at the future, knowing that God has my back and will redirect me if I start to head in the wrong direction.
“If you stray to the right or to the left, you will hear a word that comes from behind you: ‘This is the way; walk in it.’ (Isaiah 30:21)”
“You have enclosed me behind and before, and laid Your hand upon me. (Psalm 139:5)”
God bless. Love from Dawn and Buddy.
Hope this was helpful.
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If you’re feeling stuck, perhaps you cannot move forward because your life is stuck in the “miry clay” of sin. Have you considered that it’s Jesus Who you need to invite into your life to become unstuck?
“He brought me out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay, and He set my feet upon a rock, making my footsteps firm. He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God; (Psalm 40:2-3)”
By confessing your sin and need for Jesus to be the Lord of your life, making Him your God and forsaking being your own god, determining right and wrong for yourself, it’s my opinion that you’ll start to be unstuck.
I’ve never regretted becoming born again; I only regret not giving my life to Christ ten years sooner.
If you’re ready for change, please pray the following prayer:
Dear Heavenly Father, I call on Jesus to be my Lord and Savior. Please forgive my sin. Fill me with your Holy Spirit. I give my life to You. In the name of Jesus, Amen.
If you prayed with sincerity, congratulations for becoming a Christian. Please find a Bible based church or Bible study to grow in your faith and knowledge. God speaks to us primarily through the Bible and prayer.
These are also good ministries which all also have podcast apps: http://www.LTW.org (Leading The Way), http://www.BasicGospel.net and http://www.InTouch.org.
God bless you. See you upstairs!