As Buddy approaches his 14th birthday, I’ve been a bit traumatized as he’s noticeably losing his hearing. I rushed him to his veterinarian because he scarcely reacted to the fireworks this past holiday. I gave him ear ointment for a week due to the beginnings of some irritation in his ear canal, but there was no noticeable infection. The poor little fella is aging.
Now, when Buddy passes on to heaven, it’ll be a devastating event in my life and for my parents. However, in the grand scheme of life, the world will continue as if nothing of any importance occurred. But for me, it’ll be a big event.
Occasionally I’ll post a blog relating an issue I’m struggling with to share how I’m overcoming in the hopes it’ll help someone else.
Illustrations introduce each chapter in my Cattle Capers(tm) novels. I had nearly completed the cartoons for the second novel when my main computer died, preventing publication last year. Coupled with a frustrating job hunt, this event precipitated my slide into mild depression.
I’ve been asking myself the past few months: What did it matter that my second novel wasn’t published? No one cares that it didn’t see the light of day. What does it matter if I publish or not? Who gives a hoot?
Those questions led to asking myself: Do I matter? Does what I do matter in the grand scheme of things? If Christ is returning to destroy the world and all its works one day, why bother to spend my time working on my projects? Am I competent enough to contribute anything memorable? I want to have a positive impact on my culture that is hell bent on sliding into the trash heap, but does what I do really matter? Do I have any real impact?
I prayed fervently to the Lord earlier this week, as “God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1)” and “comforts the depressed (2 Corinthians 7:6).” I knew that my attitude was wrong but didn’t have the correct answers to pull myself out of the muck.
The image of a puzzle came to mind. No matter how lovely the image depicted on the box top may be, the picture is incomplete if just one piece is missing. It doesn’t matter if the piece belongs in a corner or the center, the puzzle is ruined after assembly if only one piece is absent, whether there are 500 or 10,000 pieces.
I realized that I am just one piece in God’s great creation. He’s assembling the world according to His desire and design. I may not see what the completed picture should look like, but God created me for a reason to live at this time and where I am —now. If I just give up, I’m leaving a hole in the great design in my Creator’s universe where something should exist.
True, there are nearly 7.9 billion people in this world, so I’m just a tiny piece. But isn’t your eye usually drawn to that one flaw in a garment or an image? Once you notice the hanging thread or the missing pixel, it nags on you.
Apostle Paul pointed out the importance of each person in the body of Christ. Every born again Christian is part of one body through the indwelling Holy Spirit. Not everyone has the same gifts or functions, but all God’s children are important to the proper functioning of Christ’s body.
“But now God has placed the members, each one of them, in the body, just as He desired. If they were all one member, where would the body be? But now there are many members, but one body. And the eye cannot say to the hand, ‘I have no need of you’; or again the head to the feet, ‘I have no need of you.’ On the contrary, it is much truer that the members of the body which seem to be weaker are necessary; and those members of the body which we deem less honorable, on these we bestow more abundant honor,… But God has so composed the body…that there may be no division in the body, but that the members may have the same care for one another.”—Apostle Paul, 1Corinthians 12:18-25
Recently I’ve read that the liver performs over 500 functions in the human body. So often disease can be traced to one bodily process not working properly. Yet, that function is not noticeable to the person till it’s awol, missing in action.
I cannot say that I’ve arrived, resolved my feelings of inadequacy. I know that my self worth comes from God alone. But it’s difficult, in this age of social media, not to be aware of the many artists and writers out there and not feel inadequate in comparison. However, with God’s help, He will shine His light of truth into my soul and reveal the false beliefs that need to be overcome.
And will give me the victory.
God bless you.
Love from Dawn and Buddy
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All of us were created by God to fellowship with Him. But we are all born separated from Him, devoid of His Holy Spirit which fills us with spiritual life and power. This creates a void in our soul that only God can fill.
People try to fill this void with food, material things, exercise, fame, power, alcohol, drugs, sex, escapism, etc. but we can never get enough of these things or experiences to feel satisfied or whole, because only God can do this. This void can also be experienced as depression or loneliness or a longing for Utopia, a desire for the perfect world and fulfillment humanity once had but lost when Adam and Eve rebelled against God’s authority.
As you can see from my blog post, receiving God’s life is not usually an instant cure for all of life’s struggles, but it’s a start on the path of true living as false beliefs and sins are revealed that must be surrendered to God for our benefit and that of others.
If you’d like to receive the life of Jesus, please repeat the following prayer: “Dear Heavenly Father, I humbly ask Jesus to be my Lord and Savior. I acknowledge Him as my God and King. Please forgive my sins and fill me with Your Holy Spirit. I give my life to You. Thank you for saving me and bringing me into the body of Christ. In the mighty name of Jesus, amen.”
If you prayed sincerely, congratulations, you are born again. Like the body needs food to thrive and grow, so does your spirit. The Bible is your supernatural food. Please begin reading it daily. I recommend starting with Matthew. The Psalms and Proverbs also bring bring comfort and instruction. Also, please join a Bible-based church or Bible study. If that’s not possible right now, I recommend these three ministries, which are my favorites: http://www.BasicGospel.net, http://www.InTouch.org and http://www.LTW.org. Each also have apps.
God bless you. See you in heaven with Buddy.